The Devil That Reborns The Very Nex Second

Sunday, November 25, 2007

Look at my beautiful toenails. Ha! This is all going to thanks fenru for her polisher and huixian's doings. I know I have weird taste but it can be funky in a way. Isn't it? My close classmates yasmin and hetty call me punk rock princess. Adding princess behind is it because there's pink on the toes. Nah! I don't like pink frankly saying, I previously intended to have blue instead but its rather too like to see any difference from actual and most importantly no contrast to be seen. So as hx suggested from the blue which took fenru "hardship", I taken hx's. Ha, everyone who saw my feet at this state thought I mad or a weirdo. But I think I'm artistic enough by trying colors daringly. Wahaha...

drinks that we purchase in cineleisure

Yea talking about them, yesterday we went to cineleisure foodcourt had dinner. I'm certainly full at that time and the 2 of them having dinner over there. They were grumbling about how bad the food can go, their rating for the muslim food over there actually a little sucks I admit. Maybe their taste are quite highly epected. We actually bought 3 special drinks which cost $3 for each cup. The person who making the drnk seriously has attitude problem showing the customers attitude as if we owe her alot. Unlike the lady I saw with fenru that woman is friendlier than her man! I like Yasmin's order the poison kiss. It is sour which makes me attracted to it and I drank her whole cup and drank 1/3 of my drink. It tastes awful if those syrup and ice-cream blending together. They said taste like colgate which I felt it taste a little more of the flu medicine. Go have a taste of their special drinks, a little worthy, they have pearls, gummies etc added to different drinks.

People says I always look happy before the food, asking me why I don't know. All I know is I LOVE FOOD!! It is my everything now!
*Chris

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Saturday, November 24, 2007

自刚才看了她的'博客', 心里也不禁的流出酸痛的滋味. 想为什么我身边的人就是无法看开, 放手. 也许我真的不明白吧! 毕竟我从未谈过什么恋爱, 自然而然的就不明白有恋爱及失恋的感觉吧. 所以很多
人都觉得我不懂, 但你想想, 暗恋也是爱一个人的方法啊! 也回感到伤痛,愤怒的. 当你越去回想他对你的好, 你自己就会越放不下了. 偶尔把他对你说的好或坏话当耳边风这大概会对自己好些, 毕竟你在想自己的事, 给予自己多点空间. 大胆的面对也许是心理的最佳方法, 找知心朋友发泄,诉苦呢? 有时把他当这是透明的像空气;不加理会,语气冰冷也许会让心死一点吧. 可是如果要办到的话,需要很多用勇气和毅力.偶尔会回忆往事是正常的,可我想边实行这点自然的感觉会慢慢的消失吧?感情治疗须要时间和友情, 可你们有了就尽情使用咯. 把你人为他不懂的,说/做/骂/讲到懂,至少让你觉得感情这事能让你教那些想明白的吧.

老实回答你吧, 我并没有喜欢那儿的任何一方个人. 我可是对我自己良心说的.

我只想做你的守护天使, 尽量让你幸福快乐.
还你自由, 让你找你的理想答案.
当你找着了, 我就会离开并忘了你.
因为我知道你的选择就是你的新世界.
唯有你和被你另一端红线绑住的人.
只有被你爱心丘比特箭射中的人存在着.
我的选择有少数的后悔...或根本就没有...

加油吧大家! 让自己从新出发. 从新的向爱情挑战....
*Chris

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Waa! there so much movie at year end. They just look so interesting and attractive with their poster being hung up. It always seems that only good, fun, interesting movies will come up at the end. Plenty that looks interesting to me that sounds like I'm going broke. What I mean plenty is really alot which I can list it down.

1. Game plan
2. Beowulf
3. Stardust
5. Enchanted
6. Alvin the Chipmunks
7. The Golden Compass
8. The Boy who lies (not sure about the name)

Look! So many right? My money will just flow not like water anymore but just don't know how to describe. Money is gone like that!!

2 days later is lee san bdae. Intend to celebrate her bdae later, but she's not free and gona work till 9.30pm. Looks like gona find a day next week.
*Chris

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What did you mean by " Upset can't do anything de mah...Haiz..if regret won't come this far liao lo.." What do you mean? I really got no idea leh. Maybe I'm slow, I can't read between lines but still so chim I don't get it. Hai~ can ezplain? When I message you, you said you don't understand. Looks ike sometimes you don't really know what you are doing or typing. I think your mind maybe is fully occupy by other things wor. Telling you truth, I say whatever that 'pop up' in my mind. Then the next second I would forget, so I'm someone that can forgive and forget, and can from upset back to happy easily. Not to worry too much, as you all said I'm someone that has an unstable mood swing for every minute it goes. My character is like the day and night. When sun is up, my day is new and bright, things can be bygones. That's my way of living. I can upset at times but may not be as long as you, which is obvious to you right? Yes, you may wonder sometimes do I really feel sad or even cry, frankly saying no much. I prefer to everyday stay happy, even with regret I would also try to make a way out of it. In life, we shan't think that it is a one-path or two lane but be positive that there's alot. If felt wrong, try some other way. Leave sadness behind, and face a new day with challenge after a sleep that's my thinking. Then when thinking you may feel dejected, facing hardship just say "Jia you" to yourself out loud, you may have some confidence to face it somehow. Try it out or even scream aloud.

Ideas and thoughts changed daily, affect with mood and attitudes make a different story. We directed and act in it but we have a choice to choose what we want to be.

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4:26:00 PM

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Yes again. This morning I pon school again. In total, I had skip 3 lessons and 2 UT for this module again. Some days again I was thinking I had pon-ed 1 lessons, 2 lessons, 4 lessons, 5 lessons for the respective module. Then, I was thinking I was missing a 3 to make it continuous. In the end today I had make it becomes "continuous", ha of course I a larger cause because of my laziness I know. On contrary, I am fully charged today unlike those other days no matter how I try to get back my sleep. I would feel so tedious through out the day and bored. After today woke up at 6.45 and went back to sleep till almost 2. My long gone energy had returned. Felt that so long never been so relax and so alive before. Normally, how early I slept, or even long hours, I still unable to feel go energised. Hmmm now I still wonder how I get all my energy back. But today, I had went all we 2 parties of friend. Busy as I look like huh? What to do if I do not like be in house facing the 4 walls. I think the mudpie mcflurry is not bad but berries mucflurry tastes a little weird. To be exact too much of jam, at least there's some sour taste in it. It actually a normal mcflurry adding sundae toppings only. Costing 50 cents for the topping, a little unworthy. Haiz~ at least we try, not bad overall. haha....

Sweetness in life can last, erase the sourness and bitterness off to have happiness. Sometimes Ice-cream may not be as sweet as you eat, for its the thoughts that tasting it.
*Chris

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Friday, November 23, 2007

Ha! Yesterday still thinking how am I going to open my mouth to strangers(some of my classmate) just to do a survey. I even started to think during work yesterday! Gosh it's look as if very hard for me to call peole do survey, but the rest may just be a piece of cake. My brain cracks alot before closing my eyes to sleep. By right, I think till I drifted of to my dream. Is it so hard? You may think is it possible for me right? I would turn people down that's my bad point. I even think while on my way to school. Ridiculous huh? I even think of ways and set it already. In the end, still pull it back and reconsider, ha, so troublesome. However, it turned out well. Instead of the actual target 10 surveys, all were completed. Unfortunately, some of them do not want the very last session to be know. I have to apologise to yijie, my little cute sister. I tried my best hope it helps. Another is I think after the quarrel, pestering, pleading. I think I would most likely not going to be chased out. Hopefully! I shall pray hard.

4 more days to lee san's birthday.

Not i dun admit old, I'm really born on 3oth Jan, not minus 16 days. Ha ha, my soul is trap in the wrong body? Ha ha, so my heart and soul are young. Are you jealous? :p

No matter what, fate let you meet. Even if it is bad or good, you had treassure it once before, you can slow let it go. Don't bring it too close by heart to torture yourself. It's time to set your free and have new hope, girls.
*Chris

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Hai~ today's lesson so interesting! Woots has something that I like...animated programme for me to actually has hands-on. Sad to say my laptop does not contain the program and I had to trouble people haha! Even though tired and almost sleeping, I able to catch things fast enough with hand-ons, yes what I had thought is correct.

Finally, I had said my words. I can only have better communication with her after a quarrel. Mainly, we have a large age gap and out character, attitudes are almost totally different from one another and can't meet each others' eyes. Sometimes wondering did she understand, and she never know. In the end I would always be the one soften down and give in to her. After the quarrel everything that she wanted to know would be revealed. However, I would still keep some that I'm unwilling to. Sometimes, she can't give in much help and she's over stern which I'm unable to speak properly to her. I feel so tired being a jailbird, being always under her wings, someone that is so worthless to her, feeling being control. That's how I'm struggling much to survive from all this, to get freedom, to be out of it. Then my blog would be ponkies wants freedom. This is the meaning behind it which no one will be able to unnderstand, even you right? In conclusion, I would only get 1 or 2 days off from work just to satisfy her. This is the most I can give in. I don't want to face her too much to feel pressurized and being nag. Though sometimes feel gulity and sympathy for leaving her alone, still I would want a distance. This distance is not to her only, it includes all. ALL I mean it in act and words. I treat parents and friends equally which shows my cold-heart and solid shell, the cruelties I can bring to all. I would prefer seeing you less to hurt you further, the only way I can hurt you indirectly and avoid your misunderstanding

Love rainy days for it tears and washes,
Being alone where I can store and no one knows,
Thunder for protect and lost,
Waiting till the wind blows,
When the clouds are clear and pure,
till then the sun is bright as gold.
*Chris

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Thursday, November 22, 2007

5 more days to get pay! Woots. I'm so in need of money. Just hoping my money can roll in as soon as possible! Money, money, money please come in early. Ha, just so glad this month my pocket will weight alot and can clear my debt at one go! Wahaha. Wait! I still have a list of stuff to spend on.

1. Treat Huixian -- oweing her one for breaking promise -> haha :p
2. Treat Yijie
3. Malaysia trip
4. Kbox

SEE!!..So many stuffs concern money, haiz look like even with so much money, it still flows off so quickly. Money is just so hard to catch.

Save money. God please let me save more!
*Chris

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Back to there, and this old man is 360 degrees change from daily treatment. He excuse was we are under condition in trade that' why he's doing it. Hei, I had said many times NO WAY! I won't change can't you understand. Haiz, as you happy then no choice for a heartbroke victim like you. When ask you about your personal stuff you act extremely like nothing happens and laughing non-stop. A bitter, fake smile that you force yourself. And you added "Because you are strong." However, you unexpectedly let me indirectly shot you "why are you back to smoking then?" You had turned to quiet down a little. What a man you are huh? Cover and swollen everything down. Haiz~ just like my stupid brother that never going to tell the truth and trying to be nutural. Just as I had guessed correctly, your relationship is unstable and partially of venting it is in the pretention. Yup, we don't mind(maybe) at least you can feel a little better as you had admitted. In fact I don't mind people screaming at me one day letting off their anger, that's what I had been telling my friends or hit me? Ha, and you said you prefer boxing. No way man! Sorry for rubbing in to your wounds even though I had said to you personally. I do it to my friends as well when they trying to forget, erm maybe like what you say loose a screw. And in fact people, I'm not nutcase! Hai~ bless me today I would be playing in your hands though I know I can compromise with it, and be nutural just don't be too over. I don't want to be a scapegoat.

A new challenge everyday will bright my life. I work take it and let it shine.
*Chris

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Wednesday, November 21, 2007

Yea! I can sleep under the frog prince face. Wahaha I'm pro and brave aren't I? Seriously this frog is just so uninteresting. Just a moment ago he looks like a donald and our team members just giggled away. I'm otherwise, burst out laughing at his stupid toad face which is about to croak. Unable to supress it anymore. Oooo...so sad. Have you wonder of getting yasmin in catching your breathe. Yuck! I don't think she wants man, you retarded toad looking creature. Speak my mind, you really irritates me much for standing behind me. I can't do other things EXCEPT sleeping. So ain't my fault. There's no live in this module and you jolly be a satue. Most importantly, don't make me puke! I won't like a toad/frog like you. You not my type. Well if you need someone, choose yasmin. She may acccept you, but sad to say you are her one out of hundred whom she will truly attend to. Haha, I no interest in both your lesson and in person. What a boring data talking about IT theory.

Have a look of yourself in the mirror before making a serious comment, this is to prevent people having nightmares.
*Chris

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Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Sometimes, I'm just thinking.... Can anyone know what I'm thinking? Will they come in notice that actually deep down I had change suddenly beneath my mask. Ha, actually I think no one does. In people's eyes, I'm just a crazy woman. Always so nobody business, wild, defiant, rude, insensitive. I admit I can do every listed things above within seconds but when alone in the dark, you can never see another story of me. As I'm someone doesn't like trouble, explaining, people questioning. Facing the sun, I can always be so carefree, wild and encouraging to everyone. Once out from the sun, in the shades the true-self unleash and things that happened replay. Resolution maybe popping ups for others, planning and even more targets in completion for someone, unseen concern may even appears out from your sight that can hardly come out of my mouth. My darkness is actually your wish, my sunshine is your pain. I'm just someone that is always not in you command causing you disappointing making you regret. May my apology be cheap, but I will still give a word of sorry. I don't like being leaving under people's control but in my so-called imaginative world. If you feel like betraying me one day, feel free to if you think I'm not worth it. Believe me, I can withstand the pain and everything, let it be a cold-blooded creature to you. I will live my own without everyone; independently. You can reach or come for me, but not me to you....I will only be thorns if I go for you...

Everyone has masks everywhere they go, never reveal their identity till they believe they found. Some will be having thorns and blood to their environment, so no force should be added in...
*Chris

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I agree. I like to make things left unexplain. Don't ask me why? As I already said: I don't know. Yes maybe I do feel like explain, but your words of spice along with salt had instantly turned me into a person full of spikes. A strong defence wall against you ready to fire whatever you commented. Maybe I'm just too selfish who all may think as well. Truly, this is the only I can survive no matter where. Frankly telling, I had tried many times to soften my guard, my position, my mind set. Still no use. It will just automatically switch on in a matter of further injuries. If it really hurts you, I could only apologise to you on my blog. Not to you in person as you may think like the others, and said my sorry is just something so worthless, insincere to you for I will repeat it as well. Therefore, my best outcome is hurting both of us. Showing you my defiance anf firmest in speech making you undestand. However, it just becomes worst and I don't bother to make it clear. Only silently praying you will get it soon, not by words which you had said you know me in and out. By right you what you have know is the surface, and not the depth of my answers...

Misunderstand arise, let it be. Problem occurs, solve it. Words should be laid unspeak to cause more misunderstanding. Don't wish much in finding someone know me thoroughly, but I just wish I can satisfy someone who in need of me that's all.
*Chris

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HA! Later I'm purposely going down to RP just for the UT. Hai~ only to blame myself never go to school early on. And now it's going to rain. Hmmm maybe the sky is tearing for me. Ha, yea I'm thinking to much. Maybe going to rust to work again later after UT. The timing is so tired. I will be so stress man. Wondering who can really help me. I'm not yet prepare for the UT as well. Gosh! I'm in a mess. My brain and mind are in a fuzzzy too. Not only thinking about school and work stuff on surface. Deep under, more minor stuff making me headache. Urgh can't those things just buzz off? Prepare time, prepare! I'm going to rush off at 2. Faster prepare! Mom also going to return. Dad still sick, mom would also come home even earlier. Shoo! Hope not so fast...Too much things to say abd think. Waa..help me..

Rather remain it to be silent so it will die off itself. I don't want to water it with hopes to let it grow and confuse me even more. Shh! Quiet and it will be buried.
*Chris

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Haiz~ like 2 days never been updating huh? Yea b'cos I'm just too tired. I can even be sleeping on the kitchen floor Ha, actually I'm been thinking but soon doze off. Just too tired for working almost everyday. Same as yesterday, my sunday having a split shift. It means to kill me, no choice all I needed now is money to reach my target. No Kuching trip can switch my target. Ha, well my new target should be a secret. It's from my mom's. Sad, this month I'm actually broke. *sniff* Who can actually spare me a little? That's why I'm on tied spot thinking where to go or proceed to my poster instead. Haiz~ what a bad day making me pon for the five time on this module. Hopefully I can pass for all this semester's modules. Shall everything bless me...haha MUST GO SCHOOL LE!! no more PON-ING!!!

I will reach for my goal and strive for it. This is the characeristic of being a capricorn...haha I will take care de la...

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Saturday, November 17, 2007

Never post much for yesterday, 'cos I'm tired and late for class. In the end I'm in no mood of writing and end up continue sleeping till the lesson ends. Though a little hyper high and there, which only last a short while like the frequency..haha

Just as what I had thought of him in the way he act. The only way to make a clear stand that he is our supervisior. Not only that, it is also for us to be serious in work rather than fooling around all the time. He wanted us to take note that play and work can be fulfilled in both ways, but it still has limitations. Giving off hints that we should not over cross the line, especially me huh? As I'm just to wild to get discipline, that's why he can only try to be serious a little in work though towards the ending he did soften somehow. In my opinion, I was hei man! What you want from me? I can combine both fun and work together! I don't want to get too stress. In fact, I'm always serious at work bu sometimes I'm just there trying to make it lighter for myself and people around me as well. Not to make myself suffer that much at work, otherwisely enjoy the process and procedure of it. Haiz~ I think by right no one actually understand my thinking and me personally as well. Yes and they think I always just know how to make people angry. Well, whatever then. If not, the harder I think or explain, the more troubles will arise and more misunderstanding. I would just prefer shallow down and let them think what they wants.

Friends are listeners of bad and good. They are not bits and pieces of your soul that links to you. Instead, they are a distant that will support you. In all, they are your plays not part of you.
*Chris

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They have a great respect for authority but may not, if they reach high rank, be willing to listen to other opinions on things they are directly responsible for. As the ranking authority figure in a given situation they expect their underlings to be as self disciplined as they themselves are, and to perform every task undertaken to the highest standard. They are, nevertheless, fair as well as demanding. Among their equals they are not always the most pleasant of work fellows for they are reserved and too conservative, valuing tradition more than innovation, however valuable the latter, and they are often humorless. There is also a tendency to pessimism, melancholy and even unhappiness which many Capricornians are unable to keep to themselves, especially if they fail personally. In the extreme this trait can make them a very depressed individual; ecstatic happiness alternating with the most wretched kind of misery which is so subconsciously buried that he or she should seek help if such emotions become frequent. For the above reason, capable Capricorn should spend many hours in meditation, gathering the strength to control such inner emotions.

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Capricornians make of themselves, resourceful, determined managers; setting high standards for themselves and others. They strive always for honesty in their criticism of self, they respect discipline from above and demand it from those beneath them. In their methodical, tough, stubborn, unyielding way, they persist against personal hardship, putting their families and/or their work before their own needs and welfare to reach their objectives long after others have given up and fallen by the wayside. In fact when practical ability allied with the drive of ambition are required in employees to make a project succeed, Capricornians are the people to hire. They plan carefully to fulfill their ambitions (which often include becoming wealthy), they are economical without meanness, and able to achieve great results with minimum effort and expense. Because of their organizing ability they are able to work on several projects simultaneously.

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Friday, November 16, 2007

Phew, today is an easy day. At least in my eyes, he's back to normal though I know he did take in my words. Maybe he just can get me under control, as I was given a name as "wild horse" since young. Can you think of anyone that can hold me back? Nah! I don't even think so, not even mom. All I hope for, he won't think to much and force himself alot for many of us know he's abidding to the rules. Nothing can be blame then for the rules, as a phrase call: Law by law. With a set of rules, we must follow. Be frank, I don't mind breaking one or two. Not many people will follow every listed rules, but at least we try. However, going towards to the end, he had finally tried to fool. Things a little back to normal after the whole day of coldness. I'm just too tired for today, and a little layback since lessons starts. So I was just simply contented with my day.

I think:
1st target reached
2nd large flow of people that keep him ease
3rd witnessed what we did

So fenru, just hold up the courage and talk to him. Break the ice and maybe everything will be back to normal. Both of you are friends, joke around feeling easy around one another rather than uncomfortable. Be brave, fenru. He will see it. At least I can act natural after all incidents that happens and at least may talk things that sometimes out of work. Huixian and meiqi as well. Fenru give it a try la.

Things that I thought:
I think it's all after the "show" incident, pretended to be seriously mad at us. I think he had intended to make use of it everyday, which "the backstabber" last time had shot it through his head. Taking in mind that we will obey once he's angry and giving us a sulk look. Therefore, nowadays he would put on this mask to tame us, those who are unobedient like the 4(or maybe 3) of us.

Build up you courage to resolve anything. Without any attempts given in, you may regrets for losing the onlyh chance, though He may have given you uncountably.
*Chris

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Capricorn is one of the most stable and (mostly) serious of the zodiacal types. These independent, rocklike characters have many sterling qualities. They are normally confident, strong willed and calm. These hardworking, unemotional, shrewd, practical, responsible, persevering, and cautious to the extreme persons, are capable of persisting for as long as is necessary to accomplish a goal they have set for themselves. They are reliable workers in almost any profession they undertake. They are the major finishers of most projects started by the 'pioneering' signs; with firm stick-to-it-ness they quickly become the backbone of any company they work for.

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I'm now so stress doing the excel in Operation Management 2! Urrgh...god how am I gona solve the problem of the day? This is the 2nd time I work my ass off for this lesson. Hope he can be kind enough to give me good grades. If not I shall kill myself man, no should be curse him. Ha, just a joke to make myself de-stress. Haiz~ Don't know what should be next on the excel sheet. Kind lost, as whatever I said was forever like nobody knows. Ha, this show I'm alien? No lo, a human who has difficulties in expressing herself in a good terms. Sim Fen Ru, I won't let you have a chance to say me. Wahahaha, no way to let you win man just to say some words to me when you can't argue with Wee Yat. In all, let's move on to the presentation slides preparations.

Roll fingers to fist,
Keys jump out for reach,
Day that flies with nobody business,
Making it sour and dull.
Come on people,
Bring the light back,
If not it'll forever so sunk.

Get some live in me! I'm so bored and stress in this lesson now! Ha, still a capricorn like me should face the challenge. GO! GO! GO!
*Chris

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5:30:00 AM

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I know I'm alright le. So don't worry dear friend. I won't take things by heart remember? Or I'm sure you do know me that well not. Haha, I can forgive and take. Just like my personality, which you are describe. 360 degree change every minute and even can be at the highest mode when it's not suppose to be. Believe me I can, my sunshine is always up in the sky since it's day now. However, worry about yourself more. For sometimes, you may be too sensitive and think too much about it. Therefore, you are always so sad and making yourself suffer. You shall bring yourself to the light and bath in it. With the sun showering, you may be brighter then.

Things may be left undone,
Pack with sadness,
Isolate in a corner,
Reaching for the sun in welcome.

I will always stay cheery and everything will be bygones. Sadness shall be a no word in my dictionary. *Smiles*
*Chris

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Thursday, November 15, 2007

Sim Fen Ru...i know you are reading and too lazy to tag me!!! Haha now I'm here to tell everyone about this! :p

By the way I think xian must be glad and irritated at the same time. As I think both of you had met a person like me in your life. Right? Haha, I don't mind being a nag or bug to you all. I just hope that you all sometimes can let things go easily. Don't drown yourself in it for long. Hmmm...that's my unqiue way of "erm" people. Haha,think what you like as it is. In all, try to be happy as always. Just like me happy and cheerful, crazy and fun-loving! So that your days may not be so gloomy. Yea, maybe can't be like me. However, say it out can be a cure to yourself, just a little also helps. Girls! We shall enjoy life! Talk talk talk is a gift to us! So we shall appreciate that we had such a natural abilities. Hope everyone of you don't think too much and stay happy!

No time to turn back, people!
Only to look forward, human!
Take the challenge, man!
Give the best shot of yours!

Just remember
What flaws committed
Are past and ends
Let's start anew!

I would never regrets of my doings, no tears for scolding, just that I'm stubborn to be myself. Hoping for a day to be free...
*Chris

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Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Yea....I have finally done with my archive...but uurrrgh! It repeated thrice waaa...how come like that...haiz of cos now I nid a professor's help..now i partially done. Next I will pass the job to my professor to complete it...cos I try so many times and it is still unsuccess.

I'm also here to give my complimentary to my Professor: Hot Baby Nura!!..haha muack thanks lots for your help!!!...

yea i'm a total computer cum website idiot...jux trying to learn it out of fun..haha

Whispers my wish into the gloomy darkness, saying good night to all...*huuuu*
*Chris

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Haiz~ I think today this IT SCM facilitator is not feeling good. Maybe he miss his princess yasmin huh? Waiting for her to come kiss her and turn him back to a prince again rather he sat there and croak to rot. Haha...he's the crazy frog prince. More he is so mindless repeated things many times. Now we sure know he misses yasmin and wana go look for her. But god we are having UT! Pls don't put too much emotion into this if not we are not going to have time to do revision. Come on! Don't drag too much since you said you are going to be linear. Your face is so burnt sir. So quick and get your butt off. Your lesson doesn't bring sense to me! To be you are just giving me a plain boring leturing, pointless and not to the point. Oh god! Finish fast and move!

I'm giving u face with my precious middle finger...faci...

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Yesterday, Mei qi and I talked on the phone for hours but never break another record la. We were actually all in serious tone then slowly everything tense but soon the ice was broke. We had talked about alot of things, from analyzing me to people around us to way we treat people. And can you image what she said about me? She commented that I'm an interesting character with 360 degree attitude, mood, character, temper etc. I'm someone who change so quickly that can affect people that's what people feel. Even the cutie YiJie also thinks I'm funny. Therefore, I had plenty of names with my character, throughout the conversation Meiqi thinks that I would be like: complain/grumble->serious/defence->too stubborn to explain->contradicting in trying to explain->consoling/advising people->joking/laughing->serious...
That's why she thinks I'm different from people as I can change so quickly just like the mask changer magic. Unlike normal human being once angry and at this mood would take quite a long time to recover. Then she would call me sampan, feel me too mature, naggy.

From what mostly I heard, people will feel like I'm their sunshine who always bring smile to them. But I think that mainly and can spread my mood to the people around me as I'm too straightforward that everything had shown on my face. Haha to correct myself, I think I have daylight and night just like our daily life.

Haha let you see my friends:

This is the threesome (from left meiqi, yijie and me)

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Yea....I admit I love to take pic anywhere I go including food that I eat as well. Ha ha do you know why? Because taking picture can permanent last it forever, refresh your memories. I'm glad that I finally have camera-phone. I will forever not going to change my phone then, it consists alot of precious memories. Hopefully, I won't lost my mobile phone.

Have a look at my photo:

Nice?.....I love take beautifully scenes but no tourist k?...haha

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Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Today, is the first day of school reopens after the 1 week hoidays. Yet now I'm still at home slacking and doing this blog. Beccause of someone I'm having sleepless night plus preparing for my UT. But now I have to correc again, I don't feel like going UT now. Skipping this D&T ut for once and do my best for the next 2. I'm not really prepare so, doesn't feel like going. Hmmm...now I had to discipline and pray hard god will help me. Pls don't let me retake anymore of the modules for this semester! I had enough, I promise to all I tried going school everyday from tomorrow. MUST GO SCHOOL!!!...

Later going out le...IMM somemore hope can be able to reach work on time..haha and sorri to my conscience and mom for not going sch!

Gona be a working craze from today on works, hope i can support through the whole week.
*Chris

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Thanks to MISS K-P-O SIM HOON LU!! She going to be famous soon I bet. For she's appearing in xian's and my blog, I think she has to think carefully about what she has to do in order to appear less on the blog. Ha ha....but what I can foresee is she doesn't bother. She ar....already in hot soup and brainless of what she going to deal with her business yet she still have the heart in meddling into people matters. When can she come into sense man! Sometimes the pig's brain is so tiny and straight. Then she clamps everything into her brain thinking too much in the end, she's stuck there. She always like to think in a complicated way even she has already weight with too much matters. I sometimes pray that someone can just knock sense into her, since you have trouble use a simpler way to resolve but in the end she just getting into more troubles in her way. Haiz~

Like yesterday, I was stunned when she told me she had sent a message to him. However, I was giving a none-of-my-business attitude trying to get over it. Sadly, after the 'Hi!' message being sent, he finally replied. Lulu you should be happy then: 'Hi! What's with the sudden Hi.' Excuse me! I was trying to move on and get away from him, trying to say he won't reply. Then, in the end he sent a message. A total shock with happiness struck. Lucky for you SIM HOON LU! I'm someone who sleeps easily even feeling itchiness. However, I won't thank you for that. I hate the feeling of waiting. Yes, we did send a few then but he never reply. I can admit one is lame, but the other was talking about the girl and praises her. He seems don't want to reply. Haiz~ by fact I won't think so much. So don't talk much....

The tinge feelings that appear will vanish soon....
*Chris

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Monday, November 12, 2007

Hmmmm...now I'm in considering of making a Tonkichi poster...inculdong alot of ppl la...but sad for those whom we nv took pic wif...haha
maybe make it after completing PP poster 1st la....

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Tsk tsk tsk....now i feel weight free!! No more sorrow and worries for me anymore! YEA!! going for 3 cheers to myself man!...

Maybe after thinking alot about him yesterday and getting some thoughts...by right and be true to myself, I still get nothing through my brains veins at all. I have to admit I'm to stone in getting things straight, and importantly I hate troubles. That's why the more I think, my brain won't work properly and things will stuck there undone; wasting my time. In the end, I went off bed asleep. Ha! Funny isn't it? People make things clearer through deep thoughts and I'm just sleep to let things go off by itself. Honestly, alot about love cause troubles for me this morning.

In my rules,
1st what's my decision
2nd what's my feelings
3rd how I'm going to act natural in front.
GOD!! Can you see how hard it is to think...that's why love is a pain in my eye...

Then, jux now out of nowhere the feeling jux came and I told my friends....I like him! On the spot, i blabbered about him on and on non-stop. Past concern about him rewinded and casted out to them. In fact, personally I'm still unsure of my feelings towards him. Maybe it is partially, or the feelings jux left with only 10%? Who knows? If you asking me, well I'm just too insensitive to know. For this one year, I had been overload myself with too many things and involve in alot of matters which move me away from broading over too much. This is a good thing isn't it? Moving on....making life easier and brighter...haha

However, clear in my mind I think saying myself still liking him is good;
1st a notice to myself to keep a distance from whom I sorta fancy.
2nd to keep myself alert
3rd able to be natural to others
4th avoid from being question
5th he's not someone around me anymore...i can get away soon!
This is just something in prevention for me to step overboard....CONCLUSION is drawn clearly where I wanted my path be. Next ahead is how I'm going to make it realistic and hold myself back to give a distance. Strange huh? Seeing a girl acting so weird....haha yea maybe...

I think with this new solution, my spiritual will be able to bring me a relax and afresh day that I had long for. Today, I finally feel reborn. Worries, sorrows are abandoned behind, even for later UT. Ha ha..cheers for people!
*Chris....

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Sunday, November 11, 2007

Yup...i have long time nv been in tis place already..
hmmm wif my fingers 1/2yr had past...n tis gona be my recent post man...
the *swish* i would not know where i'm going already...

yes, I have alot of troubles and soorows...
but i nv been saying and squeezing everything into my tiny brain...
OH GOD...i wanted to yell...to get myself away from the bitterness...
but still be facts it hard...
may be i'm jux a good listener giving suitable, accurate cure.
but i'm not a good speaker, a well expression-ist.
all i wanted to do is sit and wait for what may happen next...
that's all i wanted as always...
maybe i try to release myself from everything through writting...
that's the only way...
sooo maybe will try harder to post on blog or even my story...

today actually i have so much to say...yet it is so hard to put into words...as those words had been pile up for months and days, acts and stories that I witnessed that I just hardly able to describe and put a stop to it... to be truefully, everything is just so percious and unforgetable. From the people surrounded me to where myself stands....it's just an add-on to it bit by bit. Everyday different stories...maybe i shall start tomorrow then....

tedious day, with unwilling heart for studies and running wild in thoughts,
Chris

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