Sometimes, I'm just thinking.... Can anyone know what I'm thinking? Will they come in notice that actually deep down I had change suddenly beneath my mask. Ha, actually I think no one does. In people's eyes, I'm just a crazy woman. Always so nobody business, wild, defiant, rude, insensitive. I admit I can do every listed things above within seconds but when alone in the dark, you can never see another story of me. As I'm someone doesn't like trouble, explaining, people questioning. Facing the sun, I can always be so carefree, wild and encouraging to everyone. Once out from the sun, in the shades the true-self unleash and things that happened replay. Resolution maybe popping ups for others, planning and even more targets in completion for someone, unseen concern may even appears out from your sight that can hardly come out of my mouth. My darkness is actually your wish, my sunshine is your pain. I'm just someone that is always not in you command causing you disappointing making you regret. May my apology be cheap, but I will still give a word of sorry. I don't like being leaving under people's control but in my so-called imaginative world. If you feel like betraying me one day, feel free to if you think I'm not worth it. Believe me, I can withstand the pain and everything, let it be a cold-blooded creature to you. I will live my own without everyone; independently. You can reach or come for me, but not me to you....I will only be thorns if I go for you...

Everyone has masks everywhere they go, never reveal their identity till they believe they found. Some will be having thorns and blood to their environment, so no force should be added in...
*Chris

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