Don't know why.... Yes asking again and again.
Maybe just post more to cover up the lost of postage? Ha ha...
But seeing what she wrote :
do tears dried up??
no..i think it dun..
However, I think it does. Sometimes, when there's a slightly tinge feeling of crying, the tears were halfway clog that it just never going to flow or fall out from my eyes. It is just so hard to cry. I think I could cry from physical pain only, or should I say I'm too use to everything around. I have become senseless slowly and even of knowing the word "tears" in my dictionary. It never comes for years no matter how sad or down but only till physical. Unfortunately, there's no more for either...maybe turning to heartless then...
Funny, ystd gotten stepped on by a foreigner. I hissed a little to the pain and received a squeeze on the neck which totally bring shivers down my spine, goosebumps everywhere that I almost trap my friend into a corner. Just so sorry for her, but it's not on purpose. I'm uneasy and the lift was filled with laughter after they left. I think that's the obvious difference between asian and westerners. By right it's also my mentality of uneasiness being touch by people.
Plenty of bad things happened in work to day. Shall we name it as "breaking day"? Many things were broke, dropped or smashed into pieces mostly by customers. Woah?! It shows that customers do support staff break more utensils. Ha ha...a good sign for the up coming year...
No 1: Station 1
No 2: Station 3
No. 3: Station 2
Showing today's customers are stronger and starving till they protest to us...haha especially station 1 on both shift. Hope this "breaking day" will bring better luck for next year.
For what I wish from the day: Find a new job and be out of there soon....
PMS may cause mood swing even higher or making girls more depress? Wellz....I'm not sure about this. However, I think you all may realise I'm starting to built a high defence walls now to everyone. You all may think that why these days I'm so hard to get along. Yes, I just feel of setting it up. Now that you make get prepare so just don't bother me. I may just make you angry unreasonably as you realise. And all of sudden I have become someone else that is cold and unrecognizable. When you feel I'm beyond cure or betrayed you can leave. Treat me as a loner....I won't mind ^^ as long as you all may feel that away from me is better, then be it. Leave before you feel your gotten pierce by my sharpening thorns. This have been umpteen times, it would never go better.
There's no more warmth in there
Just felt frozenly cold
Spikes wrap tightly around
The signal is one
The action is warning
The words is blood
The eyes is botherless
In whole to stand alone...
Honestly, I'm still in square one. Probably to numb to move, or too dark for me to see, or mainly just a small breeze, or it just never going to happen. It just remains there....
Ponkies x
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Yes, long never been updating. Not mainly becos of bz. Partially consist of unwillingness in my heart to say it, to admit and to explain for troubles. Plenty of things happened yet I never want to speak of it. In search for someone to talk about it but never can find someone to truly say it out by heart. Maybe a sign of avoidance or fear that arose out of nowhere. So if do read it. Just remain silence and don't ask. If I feel of talking about it, maybe it will then be the right time. However, I'm very sure I would put it aside....
Am I myself these days? I'm not sure either, and maybe neither of you also realise. Just because my smile is always plastered no matter it is real or fake. However, she says my smile contains of fake-ness. I also didn't realise at all. I think I'm too numb to everything.
Snow falls to silence,
Cover the mood beneath,
Never expose,
Till golden splits,
That droplets leaks.
Ponkies x
5:21:00 PM
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<第一百天> 是纯白之连的片尾曲. 由张娜拉独唱的. 她的歌声很好听哦. 她可是很会把这首歌唱得象在叙说里头的故事. 声音完全唱出了渴望和悲伤, 真的是值得听的歌噢! 也许你会认为因为我是她的FANZ 而这么说的, 但是仔细听的话也许不会这样一想的吧. 虽然带有韩国腔, 但她努力的学华语已经让她能把华语歌唱和演绎的很好. 大家可看得出她进步了哦! 要支持她喔~
看星星 最后一次睁开眼
就这样缠绵 牵着手
安静地想念
你说你总是留着我的照片
永远的挂牵 暖暖的
亲吻我手上爱的真言 啊
时过境迁
最后的拥抱浮现眼前
眼泪是忠诚挽留是背叛 啊
留在我身边
就算不是我心甘情
愿我真的不敢说再见
九十九个夜 和一百零一天
看日历被撕掉一页
哭红的眼睛 看不见吻别
你轻轻一句 别忘记誓言
我的世界无数 碎片
要狠狠的记住你
还有我们的时间
也要狠狠忘记第一百天
还会有什么距离 能超越
醒来时的空
命中注定的分离
九十九个夜 和一百零一天
我的生命缺少了 一天
你离开我的 那一天
有种感觉的悲痛涌上了心头,虽然不知为何故,自己也不想去了解...
Ponkies x
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Tuesday, December 11, 2007
I'm back from malaysia
Kukok...don't if I spelt correctly. Haiz~ feel so sad and regret that why I didn't bring my handphone over? If not I could take the picture for the whole trip. AHHHH!!! Why am I just so slow in realizing. Haha, but good thing is that I can eat fresh seafood without any awfully smell. Hmm the food over there is better than restaurant, seriously this is what I think. Taste like heaven! Simple and homely-made. From the food, we can see the sincerity they shown while cooking it. Really yummy! Will never forget the taste. Over there, most importantly I can get my sleep back easily from the hours I had lost. Almost every minute I would treassure my sleep, the time over there just seems so long. Now I feel like I had recovered. Ha ha, the life over there is so carefree and relax. Importantly, can sight see those that we rarely could see in cities. Ha ha...haiz just cant relay everything clearly but the memory will imprint in my mind.
Hope to be as carefree in life, having a simple lifestyle would let me sense freedom and a little like me.
*Chris
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2:28:00 AM
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Thursday, December 06, 2007
终于找到
张娜拉与
余文乐一起合唱的主题曲了! 好高兴呢! >_< 哈哈! 还找到了两个版本的歌词哪! :P
纯白的爱(专缉版)
演唱：张娜拉-余文乐
歌词制作：我梦如云，QQ：66976786
合: 爱，爱，爱，纯白色的爱
爱，爱，爱，纯白色的爱
女: 一个人的寂寞晚宴，
相册里的黑白照片，
无力改变，让记忆慢慢重演，
看的见风景的房间，
躲藏在沙发最里面，
远离地面，全世界都不再安全
男: 想抱你在怀里，不去管蜚语流言，
把你抓紧一点，
用你简单的表情，换我一生的时间
合: 爱，是纯白色的画面，
男: 你让我的生命改变，
女: 发现你的瞬间，
合: 我停住了时间
爱，是纯白色的画面，
男: 爱上你的一切，
合: 我苦苦的排练，
这段故事的冒险
From: tudou -- http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/Q4focpAy1P4/ 好好听呢!＞＿＜ 可是电视版本的是另外个歌词:
纯白的爱(电视版)
演唱：张娜拉-余文乐
歌词制作：unknown
合: 爱，爱，爱，纯白色的爱
女: 一个人的寂寞晚宴，
躲藏在沙发最里面，
远离地面，全世界都不再安全
男: 想抱你在怀里，不去管蜚语流言，
把你抓紧一点，
用你简单的表情，换我一生的时间
合: 爱，是纯白色的画面，
男: 你让我的生命改变，
女: 离开你的瞬间，
合: 我停住了时间
爱，是纯白色的画面，
男: 爱上你的一切，
合: 我苦苦的排练，
这段故事的冒险
男: 送给我的白色书签，
像是为无聊的誓言，
带着爱的甜，留在我唇边，
合: 爱，是纯白色的画面，
男: 你让我的生命改变，
女: 发现你的瞬间，
合: 我停住了时间，
爱，是纯白色的画面，
男: 爱上你的一切，
合: 我苦苦的排练，
这段故事的冒险
From: http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/fc_RALL2-K4/ (listen)
http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/CGClCHG8gcg/ (visual)
两个都一样好听!知识较长些了。也可以看纯白之恋的
预告编呢～
http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/JnEkHMdOq2I/爱情真的能象歌词或戏剧那样的简单，纯白么？
*Chris
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Wednesday, December 05, 2007
I know she worried about me. Tried explain but she's just too tired to listen somehow for that day. Yes, I truly know why deep down. She too worried and had become sleepless for the night. The thumpinh of anxiety had kept her awake. Luckily, I'm too busy to talk much and she finally talked to me. Of course is my initiative for calling. Still she nags. It shows she ok then. She listened and let it go. If not what can it be done to return again?.
I never worry too much.
Think deeper,
Sense and observe clearly,
Am I too naive?
Self-centered?
No, I don't think so.
Maybe, yes but sometimes
True: I don't know.
*Chris
Ponkies x
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YES!!...Finally found her show and watch it within 2 days...bleh had finished it 4 days ago...haha that's why I never blog. Yea busy watching my cute idol show. She is Jang Nara/Zhang Nala/Jjang Nara(张娜拉); korean singer and actor. More she's co-starring with Shawn Yue (余文乐). After watching this show, I start to like him. Ha ha this always happens after I watch her show, you know ai wu ji wu? Ha ha, hmmm actually like him le but maybe on top of the list. Just that I analysis a little my type. Ha, but just like them in the show which I had waited and waited for 1 whole year or maybe more than that. See I'm so patience in waiting for her series. Sad Singapore hasn't have it yet and I'm calling my China friend to bring it for me. Ha Ha see how crazy I am if its my real idol. Like her after watching
Love Patzzi(红豆女之恋) in it, I just can see her innocence and true nature. That's why I like the pairing of her and Kim Jae Won but now it still the same but adding another compatible one is Shawn Yue. And what? She sang the opening of the show with Shawn! Oooh....just so femine and strong. Yup, totally idolise and all over it. haha and I found the song lyrics too!! But not the OST yet...sad. China product do not have OST is it?...haiz~
Show title:
Chinese -
纯白之恋(main)/
情系浦江(shanghai)
English -
White Love/Good Morning ShanghaiBook Name :
麻雀要革命(
Girl's revolution)
Cast:
杨雪(blog)、张娜拉、余文乐、严宽
The actual plot has been change. The actual one is about the modern da chang jin. A korean girl who's wanted to be a chef for korean cruise but always fail to make it. Therefore, she turned to Chinese cruise and met up with the male lead; specialise in chinese cruise. Both become friends for their passion in food till to a relationship including inverting new ideas of combining chinese and korean crusie together.
http://ent.tom.com/1030/1565/2006414-184682.html
Set plot is also similar but they starts from loggerheads to friends. Both of them been through hardships and always help each other, as neither of their backgrounds and memories are good for them to recall. It is an international relationship. An encore of Full House.
Episode analysis: http://tv.msn.com.cn/intro.asp?id=63274
My wish is that she comes to Singapore for autograph session, concert. Act as many show as she can and shine brightly....haha
Really hope to see her soon....
*Chris
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3:54:00 PM
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Tuesday, December 04, 2007
Haiz~ Never been go home for one day. Even switch off my handphone for others to get in reach. Never want to call her. Making her worried. I know it's my fault that I make worried and disappointed again. All this I know but sometimes it's really hard for me to tell her frankly. More, I know she had already turned in at 9. I just don't want to disturb and woke her up from her sleep. Nevertheless, her night was just the same; as sleepless as usual without my presence. Just feel sorry but don't really like to say much. Now you say break everything off with me. Sigh! Just hoping that you will take your words back in the end. Wellz...i have my ways to get you to it.
Besides, please don't think it's your fauly. I'm the one at fault who didn't inform in the first place. You are still welcome to my house, I'll solve my problem very fast de. Don't take every as if it's your fault. Please don't be silly la. You also must learn to solve your problem first before trying to muddle into other people's. ^_^ This is all I can say to you. Jia you wor....if not you will get yourself into more troubles.
Truth not always hanging,
Regrets will be hidden,
Everything is conceal,
Real is so unseen,
Things are lay in dark,
Leave it alone....
Don't bother to try
Or you will get hurt...
*Chris
Ponkies x
4:23:00 AM
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Had missed 5 consecutive days fo D&T module le. Today, I finally appear before her. Looks like the facilitator miss me a little as my impression is kinda good to her, not only absentive record, loud voice, and talkative. Importantly, like to talk back which mark a deeper impression in her mind. She's not a bad faci in my opinion. Kind in soul and heart, a sweet little woman that can bring fairness sometimes. However, she like her brain to be contains with all our information of 'what we know and don't know' that is PBL system. Ha ha...not i do not want to attend her lesson. It's because i'm too tired to attend. Wellz, I would try to attend every monday from now onwards. Swear across my heart and guarantee till 16 lessons. Hold on for another 1 week 4 days and we can open our arms to welcome holidays. Soaked ourselves in holiday mood and CHRISTMAS!!
Sad Christmas day arrive,
Places white,
Things dead and dry,
Faces down,
Is it so sad?
Welcome the festive,
Melt with sunshine for colors,
Bring life to surroundings,
Golden rays to boarden you,
Make yourself be happy
Plan to be better for a new year!
*Chris
Ponkies x
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