Yes, long never been updating. Not mainly becos of bz. Partially consist of unwillingness in my heart to say it, to admit and to explain for troubles. Plenty of things happened yet I never want to speak of it. In search for someone to talk about it but never can find someone to truly say it out by heart. Maybe a sign of avoidance or fear that arose out of nowhere. So if do read it. Just remain silence and don't ask. If I feel of talking about it, maybe it will then be the right time. However, I'm very sure I would put it aside....
Am I myself these days? I'm not sure either, and maybe neither of you also realise. Just because my smile is always plastered no matter it is real or fake. However, she says my smile contains of fake-ness. I also didn't realise at all. I think I'm too numb to everything.
Snow falls to silence,
Cover the mood beneath,
Never expose,
Till golden splits,
That droplets leaks.
