Never been this tired before. For mentally, emotionally and physically. I'm going to give myself soon, I think. The moment I opened my eyes, I started to do housework till rushing for job. Sleeping on bus shows it all. I'm tired. Back at home resting, cracking my brain to fix internet connections, going online trying to bring friends back. It's all really so tough and tedious. Brain working coordinating in planning of schedule. Aw shacks! Now everything getting mess up! Worst I'm wondering why poeple miss me so much. They wanted to meet me so much. At work, plump one asking me when i'll be still working. Tiny ones ask me what time I'm working. God bro said I'm too busy to meet him up that often. Indo friend wants me meet with her again by next week before she went back for CNY. And my click says as if seeing me disappearing as well. Have I been missing alot that much that nobody can find me yet? Ha! Looks like I am what my secondary mates said: I'm like a ghost. Pop in and zoom out till no one notice sometimes I'm right beside. It even gave them a shock. I think I'm going to space myself evenly, to show my presence. Importantly, to meet what others may want.

I'm tired already.
Pls don't give me the torture anymore.
I have enough of you!
Feel free to slap me in the face
Than making me dying out.
Tired...
Or get away from me...

Giving advice,
Yes I can.
It helps people,
But never be me.
It kills my cell,
Sore my eyes and heart...

For once,
I'm praying for someone,
To save my dreadful soul,
Really tired...

I can feel that I misses a lot of people lately. Especially them. Mich and people who I had co-work before. I had lost contact with people from Sumo-house to Jumbo. I remember the place where warmth were all around. I miss my Lu Wang lao da, Feng Bao gor gor, Cheng Cheng the pouty face, Zhang yue the sunshine girl, liu yang the bravo, Nancy our mummy, Winnis my best captain, Wang Ning the nutcase, Yuan yuan the good cook, Ron the ok manager, Tiffany the 'see-la', Lifang the da jie, Lizhen the blur girl, Ye ling the bootlicker, Wanling the stern supervisior, Boss 1 the so-like sumo wrestler, Boss 2 the foul mouth, and sumo kitchen chef...
So much to miss...the days especially. Even though it is just a red dot, still it's hard to see any of them here. Worst when some return to their homeland. I'm feeling lost. No matter how bad is the memories before, it seems good to me now; child care, nursary, kindergarten, PAP, primary or secondary may live scars in me. Maybe I missing time now...

*Chris