Yup up again to update. Maybe wanted to update because too upset or I feel that its fun? Seriously, I don't what had got into me. I just feel like update and posting up my feelings here. Haha, but you all ones said I'm someone who don't appear as how I feel, maybe expressionless. Truly speaking I don't know how to express much la, then I forget easily is the other thing.
Aaaah! What happen today? I was called for work, so happy but had to push away the date with xh. Actually in first place I had planned to work 'cause its last day for the update salary. In the end, call mickey to change as she remeinded me. In the end she herself also work. It really pissed me a little so I nagged at her. In the end my job is back at hand, and I apologised to xh for giving empty promised. Really should say its a bad day to work. Alot of things had been cropping up, maybe it's mom's nag that cursed my day. Urrgh!
Acutally, I only have ideas that 2 things went wrong so far but someone said 3. Well really have no idea in mind where the third one come from. All I know that I caused alot of trouble to people around me. Feel sorry to the people, but don't expect to look remorseful when I do wrong. I have my ways to express when doing wrong, gosh can just stop reprimanding or teaching me what you all so-called correct. I can have my ways, do force someone to obey as what you thought. This just make me more irritated. I know it was my carelessness to have forgotten to print out the ticket when the customers had ask for an exchange of tickets the next day. I had been so apologised to him that he had been waiting for so long that I not only have to ask for so many tmes for manager to make the final decision. In the end I had otally forgotten. Still its lucky that I in the end remembered and informed. If not everything will just be worst or never be solve man. Next is I totally forgotten to returned money to the float, I should apologize then. It's not on purpose but again its my muddleless mistake. Well, I had tried my best and remember at the least, can't just stop nagging. I'm not a person like whoever you are express yourself freely or say what you are unhappy about. I'm not people like you all. Seriously, half of my mood was been drenched from the facilitator, and the other was from Mother. The lesson of the day was so boring and complicated due to him, when it can be interesting and much more easier for it's relating to our daily life. God, everything was just spoiled and I ended up sleeping in between the lesson. I can't take it anymore, worse come to it was I was very very very tired. Can see that? VERY? Wear me off whole date that I wish I would have not work 'cause I felt so listless right after lesson. Damn, hope he won't explain that much anymore just like he wordy 6p. Please make it short and sweet, man.
*Happy Birthday Char!!
Ever few so lucky,
Till today its rot.
Days where most luck falls,
hard on days bad.
I always been bless
then till today is burnt.
*Jris
Too long never update le... now I feel seriously bored and tired. How I wish I can go home at this instant. It's killing me bit by bit as the time flow so slowly. But you people should cheer 3 times for me and encourage me for coming so early! I reached here at 9.00 sharp. For the first time in my life I had not been late to school. That was realy miracle. Ha ha talk about that, I had also sealed a pinky promise with xh. Promising her that I will turn up everyday and try not to be late. I think I can live up to it, just like what I had done so in Year 1 and promised ah bu. In the end she's the one who had not turn up mostly and I myself had force myself to do it. Thinking of it, I felt like I had followed her steps, but its too late for me to quit. In anyway I wouldn't like to quit, it had gone so far. Now I shall persist and resist, these are the main point to keep myself always come school. Actually, come school not for me, but because of my friends in class what my supervisior said; xh whom I promise and mickey who always seems to "nag and worry" for my results, and Mother who is always nagging and looking at her back, how hard she had been working. 4 more weeks to go, it shall be easy with the twitch of my fingers, I shall try hard, believe that I can do it today, why can't I do it tomorrow, shall start anew. I know the feeling of keeping the promise and on time, if want to always feel this way, I cant try ^_^
AJA!!
never look back,
never fall back,
shall persist and success,
to live with the pride,
that I can make.
*Jris
Ponkies x
2:59:00 AM
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Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Sometimes, I think it's hard to get what people understand, therefore it leads to cracks in friendship or even making everything jux so difficult for everyone. People take sides and have different point of view which also leads to opposing, that will in the end worsen everything. I do hope that people can share, stand neutral as best as they can or even digest to think. For mostly we don't really know what is going about in them, their life or around them. But we still can give out tiny, tint little wish and blessing, it is just to make our dreams come true; as well as our greed that controlling it, but greed for the heart of another person. Maybe I'm just contradicting, but now I hope that they can mend their friendship again, hoping that she can be with him if fates allow and she will let go, or cool down whatever had happened. Maybe I'm just a nosyparker or greedy person that meddle in people's business and hope for too many things, still I hope that they can be friends for people concerns differently, on the other hand people had more trouble to solve which she never voice it out, not that I mean others don't have. Unlikely, she too stressed and unhappy that she hadn't got over it yet and we rub in salt she may be frustrated. However, to the other who meant good concern with a kind wish also not in fault. For we don't know their thinking and point of you. To him, I hope from this 1st relationship will not only let him learn a thing or two, also let him grow up and be strong a little. Hope he can be strong internally and able to face the problem when he in a relationship again. Al the best for the people around me, I love you all people. Hope you all won't be hurt and break down easily, be strong guys.
*Hope things will be fine and back to normal again after the storm.
Things will change,
Mods and motion expresses
Everything filled with strong powerful words,
yes it hurts,
but we have to learn
Forgive and forget,
here we live and be back again.
Mend the hole as best as quick,
To heal before late.
*Jris
Ponkies x
12:48:00 PM
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